Oh boy has it been forever since my last post. Well lest re-cap....
October- Went by in a blur. My grandpa asked me to make a video of his life with pictures. Crazy asking me such a thing since I had no idea how to do so, but I started then to scan all the pictures into the computer. For Halloween I went to this huge dance party at the Hangar with the great Mari Bersch.
November- Also went by super fast, but I know that since then I've grown up. HAHAHAHA that's hilarious to type. Everyone grows up (I know) but its different. I see things differently and I'm not so quick to react dramatically about things which is nice :) I like growing up....sometimes.
December- I made a lot of cake balls. Mainly due to the fact that I was in my Best Friend Elizabeth's wedding!!!!!! Yes, she and mike got married on December 16th 2011. For her bachelorette party we wore tutu's and strutted our stuff down Mill Ave. It was great. But I made cake balls for 2 weddings and Bridal showers and a Christmas party. WOW that's a lot I know, but I've gotten really great :) Christmas was crazy busy and went by so fast. But being around family was great.
January- I turned 26!!!!! Hurray Seriously I'm super happy to get older. The only downside to my Birthday month was that my Grandpa(the one who wanted the video of his life) Passed away. So I had to work fast and get the video of his life finished. I think I did a great job. His memorial service took place in South Dakota. Let me just say that South Dakota during January is COLD. I hate when its colder than 50 degrees out. It was 32 degrees most of the time We were there. CRAZY I'm definitely an ARIZONA GIRL. The other bad thing about January was when we flew to SD that was the first time in 15 years since I flew and guess who got a very bad case of VERTIGO? Yeah, me. It lasted almost 2 weeks. YUK.
February- Oh boy so ya know V-Day? Well it was just a good old Tuesday to me :) Except, I got sick. I've been getting sick a lot more these days :(
March-Well its still March and not mush has happened except that I know for a fact that I desperately want to travel. I want to go to New York for New Years Eve and to Ireland next summer. I hope I'm able to save enough $ to go. Well hopefully it wont be another 5 months till I post another entry, Keep well all.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Friendships
There's so much I want to say, but I'm not sure how to say it. I'm much better at writing my feelings down then saying them. Always have been.
In high school I was (thought I was) close good friends with these two girls (no need for mentioning their names) Well you remember how people would have a notebook that they would share and write notes to each other in? Well they both had one with each other and one with me. I was terrible at writing notes. Tom-boy Amanda thought notes weren't that important. Very seldom did I ever write one. Well one day after school (we all road the same bus home) one of the girls asked me to hold on to her notebook that she shared with the other girl. I didn't think much of it. I just tossed it into my bag and got off the bus. Well later that night I was doing homework and discovered that I still had their notebook. I was curious about the things they would write to each other, so I peeked inside. BIG MISTAKE!!!! Let me just say that there was a lot of mundane things said about how their days had been and what not, but then there was a few things said that involved me. I was a bit heart broken to hear what they had to say about me behind my back. Well that was about the time I stopped considering all my "So called friends" at the time, friends. After that day I only had a handful of people that I truly considered friends. Those girls weren't on the list.
I tell you that story to help clarify something that has been very hard for me to cope/deal with over the past 7 years. After high school I didn't keep in contact with a lot of people. In fact for 3 years straight I didn't have any friends that I would hang out with. Camille was the only one that I kept in contact with, but even that was rare, and then she got married :) So even rarer after that. When I joined the Church and was Baptized I was given so many blessings. One of those Blessings was friendship. I know that I have my moments when I don't talk to anyone for a few days or even a week or months, but I hold special places in my heart for ALL my friends. When you've experienced as I have the lack of friendship in your life, you can see and understand why I sometimes behave the way I do when it comes to our friendship. I'm quite selfish. A little possessive. Sometimes controlling. Annoying, and to needy. My only defense that I have to all those is that I'm terrified of not being wanted as a friend and of losing you all. My lifeline is my friendships. I lean so much onto them for support with everything in life because I'm literally terrified that I will be without you all. Its a scary thought to be able to remember a time when you had no one at all to talk to, to laugh with, to cry with, to experience new exciting things with. It wasn't fair that I felt that I wasn't good enough to be friends with anyone because of what was written about me in a dumb notebook. The sad thing is still to this day I have those moments of self-doubt. I do love my friends with a vengeance. And will hold on to them as tightly as I can. Its not weird its a sweet kind of love. So if I ever become a little paranoid that you don't want me as a friend please tell me to shut up and remind me that I'm AWESOME. I need it so much.
In high school I was (thought I was) close good friends with these two girls (no need for mentioning their names) Well you remember how people would have a notebook that they would share and write notes to each other in? Well they both had one with each other and one with me. I was terrible at writing notes. Tom-boy Amanda thought notes weren't that important. Very seldom did I ever write one. Well one day after school (we all road the same bus home) one of the girls asked me to hold on to her notebook that she shared with the other girl. I didn't think much of it. I just tossed it into my bag and got off the bus. Well later that night I was doing homework and discovered that I still had their notebook. I was curious about the things they would write to each other, so I peeked inside. BIG MISTAKE!!!! Let me just say that there was a lot of mundane things said about how their days had been and what not, but then there was a few things said that involved me. I was a bit heart broken to hear what they had to say about me behind my back. Well that was about the time I stopped considering all my "So called friends" at the time, friends. After that day I only had a handful of people that I truly considered friends. Those girls weren't on the list.
I tell you that story to help clarify something that has been very hard for me to cope/deal with over the past 7 years. After high school I didn't keep in contact with a lot of people. In fact for 3 years straight I didn't have any friends that I would hang out with. Camille was the only one that I kept in contact with, but even that was rare, and then she got married :) So even rarer after that. When I joined the Church and was Baptized I was given so many blessings. One of those Blessings was friendship. I know that I have my moments when I don't talk to anyone for a few days or even a week or months, but I hold special places in my heart for ALL my friends. When you've experienced as I have the lack of friendship in your life, you can see and understand why I sometimes behave the way I do when it comes to our friendship. I'm quite selfish. A little possessive. Sometimes controlling. Annoying, and to needy. My only defense that I have to all those is that I'm terrified of not being wanted as a friend and of losing you all. My lifeline is my friendships. I lean so much onto them for support with everything in life because I'm literally terrified that I will be without you all. Its a scary thought to be able to remember a time when you had no one at all to talk to, to laugh with, to cry with, to experience new exciting things with. It wasn't fair that I felt that I wasn't good enough to be friends with anyone because of what was written about me in a dumb notebook. The sad thing is still to this day I have those moments of self-doubt. I do love my friends with a vengeance. And will hold on to them as tightly as I can. Its not weird its a sweet kind of love. So if I ever become a little paranoid that you don't want me as a friend please tell me to shut up and remind me that I'm AWESOME. I need it so much.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Answered prayers
This post is not very long. I was just thinking a lot about prayers. I've heard a lot of prayers and I've said a lot of prayers. I sometimes forget the prayers that I've said and have heard. Have you ever listened closely to an opening prayer or even a closing prayer or a blessing of food? Have you felt nervous giving one? My favorite thing about praying is that its not only for my benefit, but for the benefit of others as well. I especially love it when I hear about a prayer being answered. Prayers are answered every day. Not only prayers, but the questions that were not verbalizing in our prayers or even in our day-to-day life. I like to think that as we grow in life that we have opportunities to be answers or to answer the prayers of others. Whether they are close to us or not and whether we realize it or not. Many prayers that I've had have been answered through friends, The Spirit, through Church leadership, and even through strangers. The key thing to remember is that Heavenly Father does hear our prayers and he provides for us to hear his answer. We just have to be ready to listen when we hear it.
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