Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A many things that ticked me off this past month are....

So over the past month there has been so many things that have ticked me off. And not just a little, but a lot. So I decided to blog about it all.

  1. 3 friends got engaged. It made me mad cause I really want to be married and to start that part of my life. I know, I know, Its in Heavenly Father's time. I know!!
  2. My brother Jason decided that he was going to move out and take the kids with him. He started a bunch of drama and to be honest, He could have done it in a manner that didn't show that he wasn't ready or mature enough for the change. I've raised those 3kids for the past 4 years and in a lot of ways they are like my own. If your a mom you know the feelings that come over you when your children are threatened. And that's how I felt, like he was putting them in danger.
  3. His girlfriend who he wants to move the kids in with is stupid. And I'm not being mean when I say that. She really is stupid and I've tried for over a year to teach her basic things about kids and what not. She is 30 and has 3 kids of her own and doesn't know how to shop for groceries or to clean her apt. Her kids treat her like crap and they will turn out just like her.
  4. My mother of course has been pushing my buttons. Now that I have a job and I'm working she feels that its her given right to make me give her almost my entire pay check. Yeah. Its not like I make a whole lot and she thinks for some reason that I have no other use for it than to pay bills. I have a budget and in my budget I would like to save a lot of money each month and if she keeps taking it I wont have any to save. Its like a trick to get me to stay in her control cause she has every other sibling of mine in her control no matter where they are. Sucks I know.
  5. Someone broke my prescription glasses. I now only had one pair cause the dog somehow ate my favorite about 2 years ago. Now I have to contact my insurance company and get a new set. I hate going to the eye doctor.
  6. I hate liking boys or even being interested in them. None of them like me and that sucks. I'm not ugly. I'm not skinny, not gorgeous, but I'm fun, pretty, outgoing, honest and spiritual. What more could a guy want?

Even though there are a lot of things that ticked me off there have been some really good ones too. Such as

  1. I got a new job and started working. Its interesting and fun and its what I've always done and loved. So YAY to me.
  2. With my brother Jason's plans to move the kids in with him and his girlfriend, that means that I will have time to do things that I haven't had time to do in over 4 years because all my plans have been centered around the kids. So I'm excited for change.
  3. I'm learning and doing really good at it to gain some self control on everything in my life. I hope that I can continue to have it.
  4. Even though I was ticked over 3 of my friends getting engaged and not me, I'm also very excited for them. And I'm maid of honor to one of them, And that's AWESOME!!

I have goals and I'm reaching them. Everything that's happened over the past month is what Heavenly Father wants for me. Everything feels so right and I love that. So life is moving on and I seem to be moving on with it.