Its begining to look a lot like Christmas!!!!

Okay, so one of my favorite times of year is...Christmas!!!! I love the decorations,the food,and I love when the family gets together to enjoy the Christmas spirit, that loves to consume us all. My family has already put Christmas lights up and we are decorating the inside now. It is going to look AWESOME. No one else does Christmas lights on my street so my house has to make up for it. And it does a great job too :) Last year for some reason it took me a while to get in the Christmas spirit and this year I've been in it since November 14th. My Dad has opened our house up for a Christmas party that we normally have at my Aunt and Uncles house. So this means that the eliptical and the stationary bike will be moved into my room for the month of December for the Christmas tree. My room isn't that big :( But it should be fun, since my Dads side of the family is all coming and a few of my Mom's. The only thing that is a downer is that its on December 19th. That is the same day as the Multi-Stake Christmas Activity at my stake building. That means that I need to be there and to conduct. I'm grateful though, that the party is at night and the activity is during the day. I just wont be able to help set up the house the day of. Which means my mother will want me to set it up the night before LOL, But I do love the Christmas time. I feel bad though that I don't have a job right now and that I wont be able to give gifts to many people. I feel that for the past 2 years I've done nothing, but take and I haven't been able to give back, Granted I was in a position that I needed to be dependant upon those around me. That is a later post though. Okay so MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!! I can say it now since tomorrow is December 1st :)

To all those who need a hug or some words of advice :)

Today I've been thinking a lot about Satan and the impact that he's having on a lot of people. This weekend was General Conference, and what I got out of it is that we all need to continue to have unwavering faith in Christ and to remember that 'Love' isn't just for our families, but also for our friends and ward families and all those who are in need of it. I honestly Love each and every person I know. There are different types of Love and I'm so grateful to experience those different types. Satan is very cunning and he doesn't want us to have joy and love. He doesn't want us to have friends that can help us when he gets to us. If we were all alone, then we all would be in that together. No one is the same and we are all different for a reason. Satan knows that he will put you down to the lowest you can get. Remember that when he does that, that he's doing it because he knows what can make you that low. I used to think I was the most ugliest person I know. True I did think that, it wasn't that long ago that I thought that either, But those words "ugly'/'being loved' were the words that could make me feel low. I'm not ugly, I know I'm not, and I am loved. I may not have my eternal companinons love, but I know I will some day and I'm looking forward to it. Satan is not dumb, but he has weaknesses just like us and if we are willing to fight against him and his cruel intentions, then we will have the strength of the Lord helping us in that fight. So to all those who are feeling down, I love you and know you are worth being loved and capable of repressing Satan's power.

Family!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

So why is it that I chose to be a part of this family? I would really like to know. My family just never seems to give me a break. I guess its true when they say that love is an adventure. It's not a decision you make for others. It's a decision you make from your heart. I do love my family, but when I look at them it makes me cling to the gospel and the principles that the church has. I'm glad to know where I can turn for the peace that I deserve. I just wish it wasn't so hard. I know if I look at the example of Jesus Christ and the Atonement I know that the things that I go through are little to the ones that The savior had gone through. I'm just really wanting out of my families home. I know that I get stronger every day when I live the gospel and choose the right.