Foggy...Just a bit!

Life can be a bit foggy sometimes and what I mean by that is, we can forget about what is going on right in front of us and it can be a bit annoying to everyone cause it makes everyone think your not paying attention or that your upset or that you just don't care. Well I have experienced the foggy feeling and instead of it lasting just that one day it lasted for 4 :( I felt so terrible. Its been so hard concentrating on just one thing lately that I get all flustered and annoyed with myself. For instance, BOYS, they are and then they aren't worth it. Then their are friends who I care a lot about and worry about and feel bad for, even when I'm told that there is no reason to worry or feel bad. I can't help it. I think I was made to care and to worry. Then there are friends who bring up the past and all the lovely things I miss and also all the things I don't miss every time I talk to them. I'm trying to live in the present and as lovely as the past was and as sad as it was I don't need to linger on them, not when I'm having a hard enough time staying in the present. Then there is the fact that I promised myself that I would work out more and stay on a diet. Well it didn't happen :( and it makes me so mad at myself. I know that it takes time and that everyday will be a challenge,it just makes me sad. Then there is my foot and all the crap that keeps happening with it. I really hope that it gets better, cause I would love to go at least a full year with no pain. That's all I've been in for 2 years is pain and it would be nice to not have some. Whats sad is that all this is going on in my head all at once, everyday :( I hope typing it all out can relieve some of the fogginess. Well that's life right now!

The blow off!!!

I don't really know why this is, but for some strange reason when a girl gets her first boyfriend she then turns her entire life around for him :( I know this to be true because,well, I've done it and the sad thing is when I did it, I didn't have any real friends around to forget about or to blow off. But it has happened to me. I was blown off by a close friend all because she got her first boyfriend. Don't you think that's sad? Why do we do this to our friends. We had plans to hang out and to talk about the new boyfriend for over a week. I told her that she shouldn't blow off her girlfriends just cause she has a boyfriend. I'm not really mad anymore because we have planned to hang out next week now, but I just really hope that everyone who ever accidentally blew off a girlfriend for a boy or has been blown off, it hurts so just remember to think and plan better cause a simple "oh I forgot" can really hurt a friendship. I still love my friend, and hope it never happens again, and I can't really help it lol I just love pretty much everyone lol :)

Profound?

I just watched a movie on the tube and it was about 18 teenage girls getting pregnant in a small town in Massachussetts. Its based on a true story. 3 of the pregnant girls made a pact to get pregnant after a close friend of theirs got pregnant. That movie really made me think about my life in high school. I can honestly say that I knew about maybe 3 pregnancies during my entire high school experience. I shake my head right now cause I wonder (why?) I'm not a perfect person and I've done some really dumb things in my lifetime, but I've never thought about or planned or even wanted to trick a guy into getting me pregnant. I really hope that young girls and boys will think about what will happen after they choose to have sex at such a youg age. I will never say that having a baby is a mistake no matter the cituation, but when your careless with your own life how do you expect to care for an innocent childs life? Back in high school I don't ever remember thinking about having a child. I just wanted to graduate so that I could get out of there as fast as I could. I don't know why I'm posting this. I'm not in high school anymore and I don't know anyone who is still in high school, but hopefully the world will remember that epidemics such as 18 teenage girls getting pregnant before the are even graduated from high school are preventable. A child should be conceived when two responsible adults are married and can take care of the child. It saddens me when I see a child on the news and their mother locks them in a closet while she goes off to work because she can't afford day care. That really happened and in our great state of AZ. I feel so sorry for those kids. It makes me cry and want to help them even when I can't afford to do so myself. I pray for everyone that they learn and do what is right and chooses to use their brain when making those right choices..