What's new with me ,you ask? Well....

So I've decided to go back to school :) It may take a while cause of the registration fee, but I really hope to be enrolled in the fall semester. My end goal is to be a RN. So I'm gonna be taking a few classes that pertain to nursing. My first step is to be a Phlebotomy's!!! Wish me luck-

I have started to work out again and to diet. My eating habits have changed a lot and I'm glad :) I've already lost 5 lbs and hope to keep losing. Its the only thing in my life that I ever want to lose :)

I'm looking for a more reliable job. The one I have now only gives me a few hours a month and I need more than that. I have been on call for a few weekends but because the economy is so bad no one can afford to lose a day of work, so I just get an on-call check, which isn't very much, but It helps to pay my phone bill.

I've been talking to my Brother 's (Jason) girlfriend about joining the church and she seems interested :) I'm excited lol I'll let ya know how it goes!!

So that's what I've been up to lately!!!

Foggy...Just a bit!

Life can be a bit foggy sometimes and what I mean by that is, we can forget about what is going on right in front of us and it can be a bit annoying to everyone cause it makes everyone think your not paying attention or that your upset or that you just don't care. Well I have experienced the foggy feeling and instead of it lasting just that one day it lasted for 4 :( I felt so terrible. Its been so hard concentrating on just one thing lately that I get all flustered and annoyed with myself. For instance, BOYS, they are and then they aren't worth it. Then their are friends who I care a lot about and worry about and feel bad for, even when I'm told that there is no reason to worry or feel bad. I can't help it. I think I was made to care and to worry. Then there are friends who bring up the past and all the lovely things I miss and also all the things I don't miss every time I talk to them. I'm trying to live in the present and as lovely as the past was and as sad as it was I don't need to linger on them, not when I'm having a hard enough time staying in the present. Then there is the fact that I promised myself that I would work out more and stay on a diet. Well it didn't happen :( and it makes me so mad at myself. I know that it takes time and that everyday will be a challenge,it just makes me sad. Then there is my foot and all the crap that keeps happening with it. I really hope that it gets better, cause I would love to go at least a full year with no pain. That's all I've been in for 2 years is pain and it would be nice to not have some. Whats sad is that all this is going on in my head all at once, everyday :( I hope typing it all out can relieve some of the fogginess. Well that's life right now!

The blow off!!!

I don't really know why this is, but for some strange reason when a girl gets her first boyfriend she then turns her entire life around for him :( I know this to be true because,well, I've done it and the sad thing is when I did it, I didn't have any real friends around to forget about or to blow off. But it has happened to me. I was blown off by a close friend all because she got her first boyfriend. Don't you think that's sad? Why do we do this to our friends. We had plans to hang out and to talk about the new boyfriend for over a week. I told her that she shouldn't blow off her girlfriends just cause she has a boyfriend. I'm not really mad anymore because we have planned to hang out next week now, but I just really hope that everyone who ever accidentally blew off a girlfriend for a boy or has been blown off, it hurts so just remember to think and plan better cause a simple "oh I forgot" can really hurt a friendship. I still love my friend, and hope it never happens again, and I can't really help it lol I just love pretty much everyone lol :)